Living out of a suitcase continues.
I've seen a lot of movies and documentaries. I've surfed half of the internet. I've had plenty of time to think... and what have I accomplished? Nothing.
Despite having nothing to do and no one to talk to, I can't seem to focus on anything. I'm hoping my attention deficit changes after Wednesday. ...A shadow and a threat has been growing in my mind. Something draws near. I can feel it. :)
I just want all of the present uncertainty to be over. I want to know what will happen- with all of my many issues- for better or for worse. It's the waiting, the not knowing. I'm losing my sanity, my hair is turning grey, and I'm getting a permanent furrow in my brow.
I just have to make it to Wednesday afternoon. I can do that.
Then I just have to make it to the Friday after next. I can do that.
Then I will cry a little. Then I will sleep.
For now, I'm going to continue watching the Star Wars marathon, and imagine myself in a galaxy far, far away.
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