Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Faeries!

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I just finished reading "Faeries"- written and illustrated by Brian Froud and Alan Lee. If you don't recognize their names, Mr. Froud was responsible for the production design of "The Labyrinth" and "The Dark Crystal" and Mr. Lee was one of the production designers that worked on the LOTR trilogy. I expected great things, of course. :) They didn't let me down- it's pure, whimsical fun. And I'm completely inspired to start painting again.

Saturday, September 15, 2007

Becoming Jane

...was a lot better than I thought it would be. I heard a lot of criticism about the biographical inaccuracies, but personally, they didn't bother me. Jane didn't do anything out of character, and hey, it's a movie, not a documentary. I liked how the people in her life were written to be reminiscent of her characters. Overall, I liked it.

By "I liked it", I mean that I cried through the last twenty minutes and left the theater with a sinking feeling that my life may very well follow that same pattern. I might be able to attain some kind of professional greatness... and live a short, lonely life? In real life, good characters don't always come to good ends.

Anyway, I think I'll pick up my beautiful 1950 edition of "Pride and Prejudice" and read it for the hundredth time.

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Little Wonders

I've discovered that Rob Thomas is my break-up singer. If it isn't "3AM", it's "If You're Gone", or "Leave", or "Soul", or "When the Heartache Ends". I always end up feeling like, "See? Rob Thomas gets it!" (I think I should make that my motto... I use it a lot. No matter what it is, Rob ALWAYS gets it.)


let it go,
let it roll right off your shoulder
don’t you know
the hardest part is over
let it in,
let your clarity define you
in the end
we will only just remember how it feels

our lives are made
in these small hours
these are little wonders,
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away,
but these small hours,
these small hours still remain

let it slide,
let your troubles fall behind you
let it shine
until you feel it all around you
and i don’t mind
if it’s me you need to turn to
we’ll get by,
it’s the heart that really matters in the end

our lives are made
in these small hours
these are little wonders,
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away,
but these small hours,
these small hours still remain

all of my regret
will wash away somehow
but I can not forget
the way I feel right now

in these small hours
these are little wonders
these twists & turns of fate
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away but yeah, these small hours
these small hours, still remain,
they still remain
these little wonders
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away
but these small hours
these little wonders still remain

Monday, September 10, 2007

Beautiful Disaster

I'm not really sure what inspired this, but yesterday's post made me realize that a lot of my friends and relatives have never actually heard me sing... which is weird because it was such a big part of my childhood. Anyway, I figured I'd pop an mp3 up on the internet and invite people to listen. I'm a little flat, but I didn't feel like re-recording it. :) You might want to put your fingers in your ears after 20 seconds. Ha! Enjoy!

(The flash player does not want to embed itself in my blog.)
> Beautiful Disaster

Saturday, September 08, 2007

100 MORE Things About Me

I was in the mood to make a list. Presenting "100 MORE Things You Never Needed to Know About Me But Will Waste Your Time Reading Anyway"

And if you want to check out the original list from waaaay back in November of 2005:

http://aleishaknight.blogspot.com/2005/11/100-things-about-me.html

1. I sang my first solo at church when I was five years old.
2. I wore the pink frilly flower girl dress that I wore to my Grandma's wedding.
3. After that, my parents had me perform in a lot of places.
4. I retired from my singing career at age 8 because my brothers made fun of me.
5. Part of me still wants to be a rock star.
6. Part of me still wants to be a ballerina, a movie star, or a figure skater too.
7. Sometimes when I'm home alone, I put my pointe shoes on and dance in my kitchen.
8. It's usually around Christmas, after I've watched The Nutcracker with my niece.
9. I'm not as flexible as I used to be.
10. I used to practice yoga a lot more than I do now.
11. One of my best memories is of meditating on Kaanapali Beach, Maui at 3:00am. (Ok, with the time change, it was like, 7:00am to me.)
12. I followed that up with climbing a volcano to watch the sunrise.
13. I listened to the Backstreet Boys' "Never Gone" album the whole way up. And I don't care what anyone thinks of that.
14. I still have a little bit of a crush on A.J. McLean.
15. I've always had a soft spot for the "bad boy" in all boy bands.
16. It's the muscles, tattoos, piercings, and creative facial hair.
17. When I was in third grade, it was all about Donnie Wahlberg.
18. A lot of girls at school didn't believe me when I told them that I was not related to Jordan and Jonathan.
19. For those of you wondering, I'm talking about the New Kids on the Block, and I didn't actually like their music.
20. But I enjoyed the Barbie-doll versions of them.
21. I would freak out if someone ever made a Barbie-doll likeness of me.
22. But an action figure would be cool. It would be like the She-Ra dolls, with combable hair and kung-fu action!
23. I had all the horses from the Princess of Power collection, but I didn't have any of the dolls?
24. No, I take that back. I had two identical She-Ra's. I wanted to be She-Ra.
25. But when I played with the boys, I was always Princess Leia or April O'Neil.
26. That usually meant that I got tied to a tree while they ran off and played without me.
27. I wouldn't mind learning how to handle a sword for real.
28. But I didn't take fencing in college because I thought I would look dorky in the outfit.
29. The only elective I ever took in college was web design.
30. Which is how I met Michael Carney, even though he lived across the hall from me, and all my roommates met him a week before when they played tennis or something.
31. I would have met him then too, except that I never showed up to college until the night before classes started. I'm a procrastinator.
32. I'll never forget the look of sheer panic on Mike's face when later that year, I asked him to take me on an emergency Kroger run because I'd run out of tampons. You'd think I was having a baby or something.
33. I think Jamie, Karen, Chris, Mike and I watched "Blue Lagoon" the night before. Which in my opinion, is the worst movie ever made.
34. Incidentally, I don't have a favorite movie.
35. But "Pride and Prejudice" is my all-time favorite book. I've read it more times than I care to admit.
36. Closely following are "The Giver" and "Jacob Have I Loved".
37. I also read a lot of books about the holocaust and slavery when I was in elementary school.
38. I was very passionate about human rights in 3rd-5th grade.
39. In 6th grade, I lost all interest in everything except boys.
40. But now I'm a proud member of the ONE Campaign to end AIDS and extreme poverty in Africa.
41. (Don't tell anyone, but I think I might still be more interested in boys...)
42. ANYWAY... on the last list, I promised an update on my experiences with ghosts, aliens, and yeti. I still don't believe in ghosts, I haven't been abducted, and I haven't run into any hairy monsters.
43. I even stayed in my Grandma's house for a week- before which, my aunt, uncle, cousin, his wife, and my Grandma all tried to convince me that they'd all seen ghosts there at night. I didn't see or hear a thing. And I think they're all crazy.
44. Although, when I was three or four, I liked to imagine that my Grandpa would come down from Heaven to kiss me goodnight when I stayed there.
47. During a really morbid phase in high school, I planned my own funeral. I still like my choice of hymns.
48. When I was a kid, vacationing on a beach in Florida, I had a nightmare about getting attacked by a shark and refused to go in the water the next day. The day after that, a girl was attacked by a shark on that very beach.
49. I used to have a serious fear of boats for no particular reason. One day it suddenly went away.
50. I hated the movie "Titanic". Ironically, the boat sinking was the only part I enjoyed.
51. I've always loved all other forms of transportation. Planes and trains really turn me on.
52. In high school, Karen, Jessica and I got bored in Calculus and made up a fake club dedicated to our love of flying. I made membership cards with cartoon pictures of us.
53. I drew a lot of cartoons in high school. My personal favorite was a book entitled "Justin Experiments with His Sexuality". Jessica and I made it for our Spanish buddy, Justin. I don't think he ever actually experimented with his sexuality.
54. I was a very snotty little teenager.
55. Well, I guess I'm still snotty, but now I cover it with a veneer of flirtation?
56. I'm honestly not sure if I'm really complicated or really one-dimensional.
57. I used to write songs, lyrics, and poems. They weren't very good.
58. I devote most of my time to reading instead of writing now. Someday, I want to have a little library in my house- with all my books and artwork. A nice place to curl up with a good story and a cup of coffee.
59. I LOVE bookstores. I love that I could never read everything in them. I love the endless possibilities, the new adventures waiting for me.
60. I've spent a lot of my life living inside of my own head because I'm frequently alone.
61. It bothers me a lot more than I've ever let on.
62. I had a lot of Pound Purries (they were stuffed cats) to keep me company when I was a kid. I still remember all of their names:
63. Snowball, Fluffy, Frizzy, Frisky, Fred, Creamy, Evening, Moonlight, Midnight, Otis, Tiger, Purr Purr, Warrior, Milo, and The Guy at the Lab (my cats and I solved murder mysteries!)
64. My true ambition in life was to be an archaeologist.
65. I gave up on that when I realized how much my schooling would cost and compared that to what my salary would be.
66. I'm slightly obsessed with Roman culture. I have a thing for relief sculptures. It's all about Trajan's Column.
67. I haven't been very good about taking the time to learn Latin. Believe it or not, I wanted to learn so that I could read classic texts in their original language.
68. I am such a geek!
69. Ha.
70. I'm kind of immature too.
71. It's no wonder I'm always confused. The fairy princess half of my personality doesn't mesh with the 13 year old boy part.
72. I secretly enjoy watching the Barbie movies with my niece. I always pretend that I don't want to get up and sing with her, but it's really fun! She likes the "Princess and the Pauper". I'm Erica because I'm a brunette, and she's Annelise because she's a blonde. :)
73. I've never really been to a "ball".
74. I went to my proms, but seriously, if they play "Tootsie Roll" it doesn't count.
75. Sometimes when I go to sleep, I hope for a second that this is all a dream, and that I actually live a much more magical life somewhere else. Someplace with a soundtrack written by Danny Elfman.
76. He's my favorite composer, by the way. I love "Ice Dance" from Edward Scissorhands.
77. I have a slight obsession with movie scores. I like that the music tells a story without saying a word.
78. My favorite artist is William-Adolphe Bouguereau.

79. Actually, my favorite myth is that of Cupid and Psyche too. (One of WAB's favorite subjects.)
80. I had an art professor who asked me to be a figure drawing model every day. They paid really well. I would have done if I didn't have to be totally naked.
81. I have a strange paranoia that if any naked pictures of me existed, I would invariably become famous and find them in a tabloid. The thought freaks me out.
82. Along those same lines, if I ever made a sex tape, my future children would invariably find it, watch it and be scarred for life. Oddly, that doesn't freak me out quite as much?
83. Ahem. I want to go parachuting. Just once. I don't want to press my luck.
84. Sometimes I feel like a used car that no one will buy. And dammit, I'm a great car!
85. I'm not very good at being patient.
86. I talk like a pessimist.
87. I have the heart of an optimist.
88. Oh, dammit, it's late and I didn't feel like doing this about ten bullet points up. I'll add more tomorrow. Maybe. :)

Friday, September 07, 2007

Sorry It's Vague...

Life is a confusing, complicated, beautiful, crazy, wretched, f*cked- up thing. And I think that God is just a little bit of a punk. I really do mean that in a loving way.

The last few days have been insane. There's been enough drama for a soap-opera. Enough coincidences and ironies for a Dickens novel. Enough heartbreak for Marianne Dashwood. Enough tears to fill an Olympic-sized pool.

But I survived. And I think I'm going to be ok? I don't know. I feel suddenly very calm and zen-like. I have heard that the body releases a certain chemical that calms you down right before you die...

You know, last September was really messed up too. Why is that? I think I need to go back in to see Maryannah for an update!