I Don't Know

It goes without saying that I suck at blogging.

Life has been busy and dramatic. I've learned that some people really can change, some people are more than what they seem, and some people just flat out suck. I've learned that somewhere in there, when I wasn't looking, I turned into a real, live responsible adult. Crazy.

And I learned how to downhill ski. Bizarre.

Life is blowing past me, and even though I feel like I'm just going with the flow and surviving... I just took a look backwards and wondered if I might actually be thriving. Everything is changing so fast, and I've done so much more than I thought I was capable of. I'm turning into a very patient, steady version of myself. When did I stop running from everything and everyone?

In a few months, I'll be seeing all of my old friends again, and wondering if any of them will recognize the person I've turned into. I'm wondering if I'll recognize the people they have become. I miss our little bohemian community, but I no longer look back and think of it as the happiest time of life. Somehow life became less artistic, less exciting, less idealistic... and yet, better?